in an attempt at transparency...

the only thing that i have felt like updating on my blog is the template from time to time

winter is so hard for me...

i know i have so much to be thankful for...

but

my mind begins this spiral downward, leaving my gasping for a fresh breath of air, wanting to just make it through the day

without

irrational, silly fears

crippling me from my normal happy self

so in an attempt at transparency...

you cannot understand, but i would love understanding

but i am lonely...

lonely for the sun, and for a mind and thoughts that i recognize as my own

leaving me in a desperate plea for...

help.


i'm trying to keep busy, and i think blogging will help. so templates aside, this blog is going to see some more use.